I Know

January 7th, 2011
11:40pm

I know that I have posted a few things on here about how I love my family, and how....well how they suck sometimes.
But I know I am not the best person in the world, I'm not the best daughter, god-daughter, granddaughter, friend, girlfriend....But I will say this, I felt like I made my Grandpa proud today. We went to the gun range, to do some bonding, only because I haven't been over much to spend time with them and my uncle, but we talked and we put clay pigeons out on the bank and he let me shoot them with rifles and pistols, and did an amazing job, and he has been talking about how good I have gotten, that my aim is so much better...and all of my safety prosedures are right on....I just did everything right, and he talked about how proud he is with my grades in college, and that hes proud that I am even going to school....
I love knowing that I am not the disappointment that they use to make me feel.... I feel like I am finally doing something right for once...

Holidays

So my classes are ready and set for the spring. And I so can not wait!!!
This will be a tough but vary exiting semester coming up!! I am 2 classes away to being fully finished. I have a math exam and also I have to do a photoshop final for that class as well, but I no loger have photoshop, so I am really stuck now. I'm trying to get the 30 day for free again, but its not working. But anyways.
So one thing I'm cary exited about my spring classes is my First Responder class to get my EMS degree. I passes my first one last may only for my CPR and rescue license, but now we get down and serious here. hahaha nah I'm just kidding, but we do a lot more than what a CPR licensed person could do. Anyways, I will be taking HipHop for fun, I did it when I was younger, and then I will be doing rock climbing for serch and rescue, then I will be taking my bio class and English comp class too. So this will be fun!!!
So what classes are you taking in the spring (if you are in college)?

Well the time has come, Christmas, a holiday that was about the birth of a teacher, then now its a holiday that rapes your pocket, and gives everyone an excuse to tell there family members to buy them expensive crap that they don't even need!
I know I only asked for small things like some books I have been wanting to read, and gift cards to get cloths and stuff. I use to be a greedy little child when it came to this time of the year, I wanted everything, and it was all new and expensive stuff, and the thing is, I always got what I wanted. I look now, I don't really need anything but cloths, and small things, I don't need a new x-box (even though my don't work no more), or a new cell phone, or a new anything. I just find it, whats the word... repulsive of those that put that kinds of stuff on their wish list, and they actually get it. I think that if they are working and all of that, that they should save up for it. I know I wanted a new tv for my room, but my mom or dad wouldn't buy it for me, so I saved up and got it myself, it was a gift for me from me, and it feels so much better when you sit there and hand over the money for it, because you worked for it. But one thing I like about this time, is well one, the snow, two the cold, three the vacation time, and fore seeing my family, ever sense school and everything I really don't get to them much, and I really feel bad about it sometimes, but they seem to be happy that I am still around and that I'm going college, and will be the first in the Ryan family to graduate from college, I'm just glad I can do something to make them proud of me.

Well what are you doing for the holidays?
What do you celebrate?
What did you ask for?
What did you get for others!


So I think I'm a stopping point.! haha
But I hope that y'all have a great week!!!

~Heather Lynn

Trying

Hello reader,

I have been up for hours, trying to think how to write this blog for today, and now it 2am on Sunday, November 28th 2010. 

I'm really confused about a lot of things, I'm only 20 years of age, I am really only a baby still (well kind of) but I have been with my dad for so long and we have bonded so much and formed a strong relationship, I don't want to leave. My boyfriend wants me to move to the southern part of Colorado, and go to college there too. But I just start really thinking about it, everything just rapidly changes, I have to change to a different doctor, new dentist, a new school. I am one that doesn't like change to much, but I try adapt to it. But I don't get to see my dad when I want, he will be alone all the time, our dog is 18 years old, god knows when shes gunna depart our world, then he will totally be alone. But then I continue to think, I have to detach myself from my home that I have been in for years. I just have so many mixed feelings about all of this, its just I want the best for me too, but make him happy along with it, not that I'm saying that being with him isn't the best for me, just the change is going to be the one that gets me, I don't want change my doctor now that after years of being his patient, he has been there though the think and thin for me, and he just told me that I PCOS and it hurt me and he wants to be the doctor to deal with this just only because he knows me personalty, and I trust him, its easy to talk to him about whats wrong with me no matter how embarrassing it is. 

I guess what I'm saying is I want the best of two worlds, but its hard to have what I got here, and still have it down there. Well I might be able to make this all work, try to snip the strings from home still see my main doctors and be with my boyfriend. I don't want him to live alone while his friends are off at war in Iraq!

Its just the matter of letting go of what I have now, and starting something new! But hell, why not just do it, even though it seems to scare me, but oh well, the only way to come over that fear is to face it. 

So enough of that nonsense. Well Thanksgiving was amazing, I had so much fun!!!! So many good laughs and new memories to hold onto!! 

How was yours? Anything really exiting, or any new fun memory that you wish to hold to!?

Well I hope you all had a great holiday, and all. 

~Heather Lynn

Part Two

Well good evening world.

Thanksgiving is here, time for fun and lots of food. I know I'm going to be one busy little girl for tonight and tomorrow, my boyfriend is coming into to town and staying with me, so trying to clean up the house a bit. hahaha
If any readers that just started reading my stuff, I would like a response, what are you doing for the holiday? I would like to hear what the world is doing too. I think its a good time to give thanks to everything, but in some light, the historical stuff about this day is not so thankful, but I believe in being tankful everyday that you have a roof over your head, food in your tummy, and a bed to sleep in.

What are you thankful for?
I know that I am thankful for: my home, having what food we have, the cloths I where, a hot shower everyday, my bed, my dad, my mom, the rest of my family, to have the most amazing boyfriend, being in college and getting an education, I'm thankful for another day I get to live with all of the greatest treasures in life!

~Heather Lynn

Part One

Hello,

The name is Heather Lynn! I hope to talk about things you like, I hope you find my blogs fun and enjoyable to read, talking about me and the crazy life I live in.

I also have a second blog on here that is all about my art. If you would like to check it out I would love it, bounce ideas off of each other, if you would like something from me, or just feed back on whatcha think!!
http://myartheatherswedlund.blogspot.com/

Well its the holydays season!! And I love it! You get time off of school, you get to eat loads of food for no reason, and you get to spend time with the ones you love! I soak it up as much as I can, only beacuse I know thousdands of people out there have no homes, no huge terky sitting on the dining table, and or family to spend time with, and I have to be thankfull for everything I have, because I could be there, I donate colths and few dollers to the homless, to help them have a smile on their faces during the hardest time of the year.
Be thankful of all that you have, and maybe during this holiday season, put out a lending hand and doneate something, it takes an extra dallor that you find in your pocket before you wash your jeans, or donate your old cloths that you have no desier to where ever again.

Be blessed
And Happy Holidays,
  Heather Lynn