Trying

Hello reader,

I have been up for hours, trying to think how to write this blog for today, and now it 2am on Sunday, November 28th 2010. 

I'm really confused about a lot of things, I'm only 20 years of age, I am really only a baby still (well kind of) but I have been with my dad for so long and we have bonded so much and formed a strong relationship, I don't want to leave. My boyfriend wants me to move to the southern part of Colorado, and go to college there too. But I just start really thinking about it, everything just rapidly changes, I have to change to a different doctor, new dentist, a new school. I am one that doesn't like change to much, but I try adapt to it. But I don't get to see my dad when I want, he will be alone all the time, our dog is 18 years old, god knows when shes gunna depart our world, then he will totally be alone. But then I continue to think, I have to detach myself from my home that I have been in for years. I just have so many mixed feelings about all of this, its just I want the best for me too, but make him happy along with it, not that I'm saying that being with him isn't the best for me, just the change is going to be the one that gets me, I don't want change my doctor now that after years of being his patient, he has been there though the think and thin for me, and he just told me that I PCOS and it hurt me and he wants to be the doctor to deal with this just only because he knows me personalty, and I trust him, its easy to talk to him about whats wrong with me no matter how embarrassing it is. 

I guess what I'm saying is I want the best of two worlds, but its hard to have what I got here, and still have it down there. Well I might be able to make this all work, try to snip the strings from home still see my main doctors and be with my boyfriend. I don't want him to live alone while his friends are off at war in Iraq!

Its just the matter of letting go of what I have now, and starting something new! But hell, why not just do it, even though it seems to scare me, but oh well, the only way to come over that fear is to face it. 

So enough of that nonsense. Well Thanksgiving was amazing, I had so much fun!!!! So many good laughs and new memories to hold onto!! 

How was yours? Anything really exiting, or any new fun memory that you wish to hold to!?

Well I hope you all had a great holiday, and all. 

~Heather Lynn